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rely on me.
i'm your soul.

Your photo here.

I'm a girl who ONLY love myself♥.


strike out.

I want you
I wanna be rich I want everything I needed

hearts talking.



alternative exits.






my days, not yours.


thank you.

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Thursday, April 25, 2013

Hey sup peeps~~~!!! Oh yes I remembered my previous post was on Jan which is like 3 months ago. Today I'm going to share about what makes me feel horrible. So far now, my relationship with family is fine, my studies is going fine too. But what's troubling me now? FRIENDSHIP PROBLEM! I can't seem to grab hold one or two good friends that are willing to be with me every time in school. Probably I'm not pretty,not popular, too quiet and reserve to hang out with. That could be why people doesn't want to be close to me. Sigh, what if my characters change to which a couple of people will like to hang out with me. Ha, I know I sound sooo desperate for friends. Actually no, is just that I felt that everyone in my class had already found their own friends and also clique. Except like me and maybe also one or two. And the one or two doesn't want to be with me, weird huh? I really don't understand, I believe they can feel they're not really welcomed by people yet they still want to hang out with them. SIGHHHH!!! Am I really that BAD until like this? Personally I think they every single person is selfish, they one think about their own good but not others. Why can't them make others equally happy too? Why can't they let you,me,they,we happy?? Now I can say that(among girls) they don't have a very kind heart. Maybe only a few only. And not all of them dare to actually express their true thoughts for fear to get kicked out by their clique. I really really really want this misery in school to END SOON! But how long exactly is the 'end soon'? No idea at all, I hope I can predict the future of mine. Is the god now giving me a huge test for me to take? Perhaps.. Whenever when we need to line up in two, everyone will rush to partner with their friend. And me, the leftover that no one want to pick. I can only like partner with another poor girl which get hate by the like WHOLE girl I guess. So should I call myself lucky? Maybe just luckier than that girl by a little? I feel like I am so super pathetic in school, seriously. I can guarantee that those girls got talk behind my back saying "You know right, P. is such a loner" or "She is like a follower.." blah blah blah. Snake's tongue is not the deadliest, but it's the human's mouth. Get what I meant? Maybe I can only find better friends when I graduate from sec school, which is like 2 or 3 more years. Oh gosh, it's soooooo long! Okay I hope that I will be able to stay strong and overcome this HUGE OBSTACLE! Will god help good person or will god help bad people? I hope JUSTICE WILL HELP...! *pray that this fucked up prob will be OVER!* PS: Currently feel so frustrated now. FML, FML & FML! _l_


♥ Thursday, April 25, 2013